How my artistic life really began

I wrote a series of poems called:  The Velvet Rut

It was not in the plan that I became shocked and even scared by what I wrote.

I have a quest to find home, but also to veer clear of the velvet rut.  An abstract feeling or concept on purgatory.  I see people and myself content that they have achieved purgatory in this life.  It even is seductive, but if made visible to the mind.  My mind.  I see a strangely powerful horror worse than almost any nightmare.