I tend to feel lately that our spiritual life is often smaller than we realize. I wish to make it about times more apart of me and my time.

I feel that some people would think this is very weird, but I do this for me, and it would be none of people's business to judge such a thing.  Some people perceive, observe and figure things out, others react, judge, and can get paranoid.   Be to be a perceiver, because the other type can turn into some kind of killer.