What is actual?

Moments are actual and the degree of the memories they leave behind and the quality of those memories are actual. Memories that confuse are more fractal and go nowhere but to detris. Actual is real and is less virtual than much that we are into these days. We flee the actual too often dear Watson. The price we pay for the faults we make can be very great. The rewards. That is the question really. Even if it is not pleasure, there are rewards in that which is a challenge. When we feel our self break down a wall we feel strong. If the rewards come from cotton they may be not where a man can comfortably stand. A man is a man not a lady. There is a time to stop to be with out a mask and be the Son of my Mother and Father. To feel all that I am.