As I say the universe works in it's own way that I must somehow persist and be patient.

Then I pain with the lack of empathy around me.   I pain at what seems that it is not selfish motives that drive people but a lot of other garbage as well.   Especially people in my own family and other places.   I just get harmed a lot.   People don't give a shit sometimes and will trample over other people.   Sorry for the lack of positivity, but I hope that all the demons feel Gods wrath.