No fun for me!

Well there was no mystic garden party for me.   I gave up because I think I know of my fear of crowds and strangers.  Damn I have way too much fear in general.   I think it is really generalized anxiety.   Perhaps if I was drunk the whole time I would do fine.   But then I am the kind of person that wants to be more perfectly prepared for such an outing.   To go with some buddies that really care about me, that would give me a ride home at a moments notice and who could create a safe comfortable place to camp out and even a vehicle big enough to camp out in.  That makes me not much of a festival goer.   At the moment.